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Happy Birthday to me.....

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怎么最近这么多心思战场阿??!

假期大计

终于考完了...战战兢兢的...无论如何, 都过了. 交托吧.!

决定了, 这几天会好好的享受, 无论忙碌也好, 游玩也好, 都是享受的过. 过完这几天, 就会回到自己好久没回去的家乡了, 我想爸妈想我了, 爷爷奶奶必定也在想这孙子怎么这么久没回来了? 想念他们每一个人. 这一次回去又刚好碰到开斋节, 更是我一家人大团聚的时候...真是好. 回家真好.! :)

这一次回家的任务, 除了休息, 还有好一些其他的噢...

1. 练好钢琴技巧, 10月7日至15日会和一位二胡手一起参与服侍.
2. 编曲. 昨天刚刚从志伟传道得到一首歌. 会为这首歌从新编曲, 然后汤文升牧师会灌录这首歌.
3. 和MYPPW团员聚集. 商讨31/12/09倒数敬拜.
4. 会和几位好久好久每见的弟兄姐妹见面. (很期待)
5. 参与一位中学朋友的婚宴, 同时也会见到很多很久没见到的中学好朋友. (很期待)
6. 帮老爸庆祝生日.

大概就这一些吧...可能还会有更多的噢...无论如何, 我期待.! 这将是一个非常轻松的假期.

信心的挑战

最近,真的走入一些困境当中. (谁说基督徒没有困境, 没有软弱?基督徒也是人) 但我相信神的保守.

这一次的考试, 我只能以3个字来形容我自己, 不满意. 一些有准备的科目, 进到考场的时候, 却忘记得七七八八. 怎么考? 甚至尝试过考试考到睡着.!! 怎么搞?

一件事情我没有忘记. 我祷告.! 很多人都说临时抱佛脚, 而我却临时抱十字架. 你说没用吗? 我就要证明给你看. 曾经在一次的钢琴考试中, 我也遇到如此的问题. 准备的不足, 令到考试完全不好. 自己在弹什么都不知道. 那时候我真的很担心, 很难过. 爸爸知道我的情况, 也讲了我一餐饱.! 我只有祷告: 上帝阿, 我只要及格.我不贪心, 我不求多, 我只要及格. 结果, 成绩出来时, 我真的及格了. 150分满分, 我得了103分. 我相信 上帝的恩典实在是够用.

对于这一次的考试...我只能说上帝阿, 我只要及格. 原谅我对袮的小信. 但我真的不要求多, 我只要及格.

在感情遇到挫折的一段时间, 曾经在一次和一位朋有的聊天中, 他告诉了我一件事情:" You deserve a better one." 这一句话留在我脑海里直到如今. 我的弟兄告诉我: 为神所放下的东西, 将来会得到一个比现在所拥有的更好. 我也记得了. 我要说的是: 神啊, 我要对袮更加有信心. 什么事情都好, 我相信袮要为我预备.

这是一场信心的挑战...

失望

回头看一看, 对自己近来的表现很失望. 今天考完了第三科, 可是完全没有信心. 当我拿到试卷的时候, 我几乎哭了出来. 题目所出的, 全都是我自己所看过, 读过的, 可是, 在考场坐了两个小时, 我写的东西可说是寥寥无几. 我几乎飙泪了..我的信心几乎被击垮了. 前几天读的东西, 几乎都没进脑. 我不能够怪任何人, 只能怪自己不够努力, 不够上进, 不能够好好控制自己, 没有自制的能力...

除了考试, 做事情也时常没交代. 比起三年前的我, 逊多了.! 以前所拥有的胆量, 组织能力, 看来几乎都不见了...时常在怀疑自己:"我到底怎么了?"

感情, 更不用说.!第二段感情的失败很多时候就让我觉得自己信心失落. 我不敢再踏入新的另一段. 我害怕自己被伤害, 我更怕她被我伤害. 可是一些时候的情不自禁, 却又有意无意的表露自己的心情. 我很矛盾. 一方面知道神会为我预备, 一方面却有了自己的想法. 对于明日之前在感情中被我伤害过的人(包括还未正式踏入的):"对不起, 我不是完美情人. 很多时候不能满足你们所有的一切. 对于我的过失, 我无言以对. 只能祝你们永远幸福快乐. 你们会找到比我更好的.!"

至于祂, 我无数次的让祂失望, 难过. 祂的声音又开始离我远去....

我很失望...我对自己很失望...........

我可以在一些事情上说不吗?我不是有决定的权利吗? 我可不可以让我的头脑安静, 别想太多, 让祂来为我预备? 我很想放掉现在所拥有的情况. 完全的放空....

我想回家...我想避开一些事情....我不想有人被我伤害.!

神哪祢是我的神

我要切切的寻求袮...

无论在怎么样的情况中,

我唯有寻求袮....

因祢是我生命中的一切.

祢超乎我生命中所有的一切.

Your love is higher, higher than the heaven.

Your mercy deeper, deeper than the earth.

Your grace is wider, wider than the ocean.

I will never let You go, never ever let You go....

Faith

There is few things i encounter Him recently. My spiritual ears are more sensitive to Him. I want to keep it and make me keep closer to Him.

1. Recently God give me something cool in my life. At first i don't really believe it. I said God, i need more confirmation. You know what? The 1st confirmation came to me tru msn message. My God is technological God. He is true. I believe that there is more confirmation coming to me soon...
2. Preparing for Cell Group Cameron Highland outing recently. Until yesterday we still found that there is some deep problem in transportation. Honestly to says that i didn't put much effort on prayer in this thingy. I apologize. Last night, i kneel down before Him once again and pray for this. He told me what? believe in Me, I going to prepare everything for you all..go and rest ba..that was around 1am..I don't think much and just go rest at 2am after chatting with AhBeh'. This morning, EeFung told me that someone might lend us his car and make our outing smooth. although it still not yet confirm but i believe and i can proclaim by faith that we will not have any transportation problem anymore.! I believe in God. He prepare everything for me.

My God is Awesome God. No one can compare with Him, and he is the only one. I'm here to testify His greatest work and His greatest name.

Amazing

流泪了..这是感恩的眼泪...

太多东西我说不出口,

我只能说祂垂听了我的祷告,

我也经历了祂的作为.

但我还要更多.

我告诉你...我的神, 无"神"能比.!

Amazing....

只为袮而活

2006年: 为这一首歌谱曲. 林志伟传道作词. 同一年, MYPPW MINISTRY在曼绒教区主办了第一次的倒数敬拜赞美( 07 MYPPW countdown worship conference), 主题为只为袮而活. 弟兄姐妹热烈的回响, 把当晚的聚会所坐满, 超过500人出席, 青少年人占多数. 许多的青少年人在当晚回应神的呼召, 这一生只为主而活.

2007年: 因着神的感动, MYPPW决定开始策划并推出第一张专辑, <只为袮而活>.

2008年终, <只为袮而活> 终于出炉了. 荣耀归主名.

2009年八月25日, 我在听着这一首歌<只为袮而活>. 从一开始为这首歌谱曲到现在, 听过这首歌的次数早就超过数百次甚至到千次. 我相信这首歌里头从满着一种难以想象的力量, 祂在不断的提醒我.

曾经我已经忘了我的方向, 祂所托付给我的. 直到上个星期六的青年崇拜, 祂提醒了我. 曾经在无数次的聚会中向祂说出了承诺, 这一生只为祂而活. 不管前面的路多么难走, 我都要走下去. 我相信祂会带我走. 祂为我所做, 所付出的比我难了好多好多倍, 甚至付上了自己的生命.

对不起, 过去我背叛了袮. 我答应, 我会更爱袮, 当当只为袮而活...

15 Malaysia

New Gigs....

Just came back from Sri Petaling as I had joined MYPPW prayer meeting and gathering at Permais Methodist Church last night and i over night at my brother Kelvin's house. At the same time enjoy some very cool new stuff....hahaha...let me tell you more.

Last night after the prayer meeting, we just play out some songs to warm up our team musicians fingers..but the Bassist was not around, so i just picked up the bass guitar and play around. Atlast, i manage to play a song together with our band...hahhaa...sounds quite bad...hahahhaa..anyway, it is the 1st time i picked up with this instrument and i manage to play some technics, so consider not bad edi la...hahaha....

After gathering, just went to Kelvin's house together with B-chai(which also know as Samson). I tried to install the latest version of Logic Pro, Which is Logic Pro 9. I tell you what, IT IS GREAT. with a lot of new electric guitar amps and effects. Fuiyoh.... although i don't really know how to play electric guitar, but it is useful for me to do music arrangement. Let me show you some photos of new version of Logic Pro, and here is just part of the guitar amps from Logic Pro, still got more and i can't capture it all...have a look...

Logic Pro 9

Logic Pro Guitar Pedal Board

Logic Pro Guitar Amp 1

Logic Pro Guitar Amp 2
Logic Pro Guitar Amp 3

Logic Pro Guitar Amp 4

Logic Pro Guitar Amp 5

Logic Pro Guitar Amp 6

Logic Pro Guitar Amp 7

Logic Pro Guitar Amp 8

When i came back from there, just get a another gigg...Electric Guitar. I wanted to try out electric guitar for quite a long time already (actually i wanna to learn musical instruments as much as possible) and this time, Brother Nick lend me his old electric guitar as he had bought a new want last few months..so, here is the thing..

It looks little bit old, but i dun really mind it. as long as it can functioning well, then i will pick it up and play already, JANJI ADA BUNYI..hahahaa...anyway, gonna try out all these things together with my new audio compressor after my exam....i tell you, it is COOL......CAN'T WAIT..@@!!!!

In Prayer We Serve

In Prayer We Serve - MYPPW

在耶稣基督你我相遇

感谢主的恩典你我彼此同工

一同在主爱中成长

我们谦卑的学习

虽有低谷时

但相互关心

让我们不再退缩不再畏惧

刚强壮胆为主来梦想

同心走在十架路上

我们齐心的努力

创造更美的爱的故事

In Prayer We Serve

我们总要警醒祷告

勿要殷勤心里火热

常常服侍主 为主而做而活

In Prayer We Serve

我们立了新的志向

这一生中为主摆上

勇敢的前进 宣扬主爱

我是基督精兵 我们共步往前进

我们永不灰心 基督精兵 前进

In Prayer We Serve

"傻瓜, 我们都一样..."

傻瓜是不是没有感觉呢? 受过了伤却很快就忘记自己曾经受过伤. 我想傻瓜并不是没有感觉, 只是他比其他人来得更勇敢; 勇敢接受一件曾经伤害过他的事而从新在他生命中发生. 明明知道感情伤害过他, 他却很快的投入另一段感情. 难道他忘了过去在感情中怎么样被伤害过吗?受了伤,却又不投降...

感情世界来来去去不都是一样吗? 总是会有人被伤害. 付出了多少代价却又如何? 一样还是会受伤. 我多么希望感情世界里会有例外, 傻瓜所付出的, 得回他应得的; 被人疼爱, 被人珍惜.

很多时候自己是多么想能够成为傻瓜, 不知何故的再踏入一段感情. 可是我不能. 太多警戒了. 脑海里所存的, 很多都是对自己不利的. 多么希望自己是一个傻瓜, 踏入一段新的感情, 被人疼爱. 我能吗? 她在哪里呢? 我看不到. 我不想再一次同一时间伤害她和我自己. 我做过傻瓜了....

离开

看到你们所有人的合照, 令到我更想从你们抽身而出, 离开这一帮的朋友. 我总是觉得自己总是不在你们一群人里头...

我不开心, 我真的想离开...